It's probably dawn when i finally caught sleep. I woke up late morning with heavy eyes and a heavy heart. I feel a bit better now, or best to say I've accepted the fact that indeed we failed, yet again, and there's nothing we can do but try again.
It's been a long empty day. I feel so down - heart, body, soul...
Baby dust, wish me baby dust....
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Baby dust, come to me...
My monthly period came and I am feeling really down. I was holding back my tears as I told bby it came. He must have tried not to show me a heavy heart, and so he just made face and hugged me as if it's no big deal. I still cried in his arms anyway.
It's past 2am and I can't find sleep. My heart still hurts. I'm turning 32 next month, been married for 6 years, been on and off fertility work-ups, and is now on another failed cycle. I thought I needed an outlet and so I'm writing this like a diary I used to have.
I'm in a haywire of emotions and my tears won't stop. Baby dust, come to me... please come to me...
AF: 29 Oct 11; 7pm
It's past 2am and I can't find sleep. My heart still hurts. I'm turning 32 next month, been married for 6 years, been on and off fertility work-ups, and is now on another failed cycle. I thought I needed an outlet and so I'm writing this like a diary I used to have.
I'm in a haywire of emotions and my tears won't stop. Baby dust, come to me... please come to me...
AF: 29 Oct 11; 7pm
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